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inchoate \in-KOH-it\, adjective:
1. In an initial or early stage; just begun.
2. Imperfectly formed or formulated.

it seems so painfully fitting to me at this moment.

i'm also reminded of a bit out of a joanna newsom song, only skin:

then in my hot hand
she slumped her sick weight
we tramped through the poison oak
heartbroke and inchoate